Hold my heart
I posted this a year or so ago but I still believe it, and I’m posting it again because I can.
*****
Searching for the answer,
nobody seems to care
I think I have looked for love to be the kind of thing where you're not pulling the strings in the dream and therefore you know it exists and someone cares about you.
And I'll be waiting by the window
for your smile to come through
It's that relationship where you can go transparent with another person as you two share your feelings and emotions. There's that complete trust and unconditional love. Sitting down all night long just talking and revealing yourself to another person while love reveals the hidden secrets, I think that is beautiful.
And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares
I like thinking for as long as I matter to even one person, I can go through this life. As long as there is that one person who gives a damn about me, I will be okay. Because I guess I have always believed that one soul is enough for eternity.
And when I call out to you,
Will you be right there?****
It’s insecurity that makes me so afraid, afraid of life and relationships. Afraid that there isn’t anyone out there who wants to love me. Sometimes I feel like there’s never going to be anyone who feels for me the way I feel for them.
I’m tired of being the one that puts myself on the line. I’m tired of being the one that always has to give people time at the expense of what I want or how I feel. It’s probably my own fault that I have such high expectations and ideals, that I want things to be my kind of perfect.
I’m being selfish and melodramatic. Excuse me.
Ear Candy: "Everything" -- Lifehouse
Fashion police
To the girl wearing the strapless red dress,
If you're going to wear a dress that looks like it's been spray painted onto your body please, for the love of all that is good and holy in the fashion world, do not wear the grandma-equse undies that you wear when you've got your period and are feeling bloated and ugly. Slinky red dress = sexy, grotesque underwear lines = not so sexy. It's called a g-string: buy one, love one and you know, WEAR ONE. Or go commando. Either way would work.
Much Love,
The VPL-free loving people of the world.
Tomorrow, When the War Began
The Tomorrow series by John Marsden is one of my all-time favourite series of books, and I'm sure most Australian kids would agree with me here. The story is based around a group of teenagers from country Australia who go off on a camping trip, only to return a week later to find that Australia has been invaded, and their town has become a major part of the enemy's operations. The story tells of their experiences during the war, not only of their guerilla like activities, but also goes into a great deal about their emotions, maturity and courage during the war.
I first started reading this series when I was 13 and was hooked after the first book. It originally was only meant to be a trilogy, but due to its immense popularity John Marsden decided to make it into a 7 book series. And I'm sure glad he did. These books kick so much ass they deserve their own shoes.
While I was in the bookstore the other day I noticed a familiar looking cover - all the hardcover version of the Tomorrow series are done in a similar style. As I wandered on closer to the book I saw it was written by John Marsden with a title I didn't recognise, While I Live: The Ellie Chronicles. By this stage I was ready to pee my pants in excitement as Ellie is the narrator of the original series. Turns out John Marsden has decided to continue the story! *squeals*
So yeah, I ended up buying the book and finishing it the same night. Yes, I'm a dork. Bite me. If you're a fan of the series get thee to a bookstore or a library! (And if you're one of the deprived who haven't read the series at all yet: what are you waiting for?! Go! Run! Get! It! Now!) Even though the book is written for teenagers/young adults it's still fairly mature in the language and I know a lot of adults who are also huge fans of this book. While I Live makes you want to read the original series again, which I'm doing...for the 3rd time. Onto book 4 now and it's still as awesome as it was the first time I read them.
John Marsden hurry up and write the next book. I'm waiting.
Ear Candy: "Round Here"-- Counting Crows
Apple lovin'
You will be mine. MINE!
It was just announced this morning at MacWorld. I must have it, the pink one in all it's prettiness.
Ear Candy: "This Love" -- Maroon 5
If this song were a guy I'd have his children
Download this song, 'tis pretty.
I like the faces you make at me
When we're lying in bed
They are always so beautiful
I like the way you tuck your body close to me
When we're sleeping it's all right
Ear Candy: "Faces" -- Josh Kelley
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
So ends another year in the life of Larissa. It's been a long year and I'm tried, both physically and mentally. But I've got to say that with all that's happened through the year, I'm going to be left with some pretty amazing memories.
I've made a lot of complaints this past year, and I've been faced with a lot of crap. But I've also had a heap of fun. I've had the opportunity to meet a great bunch of new people, to learn from them and from myself.
I’m glad that I’ve kept this blog going for so long, reading through my archives from 2003 is rather entertaining (well for me anyway), 2003 was one kick ass year for me and it’s going to take a lot for 2004 to top it.
Ear Candy: "Anything" -- Mark
(Yeah, Mark wrote me this song. It's just so sweet. Aw. Awwww. Eeeee! *ahem* Sorry, I'm such a sap. But awww, my favourite song of 2003 ;p)
